This is just
for my thoughts.
I recently
found out at work that a co-worker of mine has cancer. It keeps coming to mind and I
can’t shake the need the need to help.
It’s all I ever want to do in those situations. Just hug the person and promise them
everything will be okay. But
that’s not how things work and I listen.
The four
Yorkies are over for the next five days.
Oogie still hides at the sight of me, but I try to make their stay as
comfortable as possible. Alfie
isn’t really bothered either.
Until Nina wants to play with him, which leads to him slapping her. It’s already happened twice. I tell him not to but she’s really
persistent. Animal drama.
Valerie and another friend went off camping in a cabin this weekend. They missed work Friday and I believe return today (Sunday).
She was going to do a lot of firsts this weekend, so I hope it all works out. Not too worried; she’s a smart cookie.
Now I have
working out on the brain. Today I
have two classes this morning at the gym; cardio followed by Zumba. I’ve attended Zumba twice and I’m
really happy with my instructer, Catherine. She teaches cardio also and my mother says it’s great, but
everyone else is a woman. Not that
I mind, but I wonder if they mind me.
If they think I’m straight I look like a huge creep.
Maybe I’ll
just jog before Zumba like last week.
I’ve been in
creative spirits lately. I’ve
written a couple of new pieces and a project’s a brewing. Hopefully it works out. I’ll try to keep this alive as much as
possible; even if it’s just a few lines of nonsense. From now on, I finish what I start.
Here’s an
outro:
free write 7.19.12
Write it
out,
Whatever
comes to mind, do it.
Do it do it
do it
Over and
over, until you’re comfortable with
This shit
Kinda fun to
fuck the flow and just fucking go,
To not think
about sounding good and showing growth,
It feels so
good to not think,
Just word
words words, without structure
A free space
for a free night
I backspace,
He’s waiting
on the couch wondering
About my
words
How they
reflect his behaviors,
If there
will be a sting after I’m done,
But no…just
a free write
Just a good
time, with my art and my life
A night for
reflecting, doing what I haven’t
In a while
Trying to
change the subject, I almost did
Oh, I
backspaced again
I needed to
remember how to fill a page with my thoughts,
Without the
worry of others,
I don’t know
when I gripped onto public paranoia,
But it’s
been rough
I needed
this.
Just me and
time…and Alfie.
I love this.
I missed this.
I just made
love for the first time in months.
I've missed your writing! I wondered why you stopped. I actually think this free piece is better. More emotions and energy goes into it, its more real. Instead of forced perfection. It was so easy and fun to read!
ReplyDeleteAnd go work out! Who cares if someone has a problem with you being there. If they can't say something to your face then its their problem. And if its cause your a male and their are uncomfortable, they should have joined an all girls gym. You pay your membership just like they do. Get your work out on!
You're right. I will.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could "like" comments here. lol